The Road

Life has thrown me a few curve balls that I am unable to hit. For the last two years I have hit one road block and then the other. When I applied to BYU I almost didn't go because I thought I was getting married. I had the hardest summer of my life and headed to BYU blindly without any friends. When I got to BYU I encountered one disappointment after another and I struggled in school the first class I ever failed was after I had been in school for three years and was consecutively on the honor roll. School has never been easy for me and I have had to work harder and study longer than anyone I have ever met. It was not uncommon to study 50 hours for a test and walk out with a 65% I still have yet to understand what is different about BYU to BYU-I but I have never been so frustrated. I have changed my major seven times and still am searching. Today was a interesting hard day my mom called and told me that my acceptance letter came and I didn't get into the Nursing Program. I was so hurt because we have put everything on the line to move to Pocatello and I felt that a major reason we were going was for me because I am not succeeding at BYU. Then, when I don't get into ISU I was heartbroken. I feel so bad because Alan is so smart and can survive anywhere but he is paired with me I just don't want to let him down or hold him back. I know that I was supposed to come to BYU to meet him but I am quickly being convinced that, that is the only reason that I am here. If you look at the big picture though, I would choose him over a stellar GPA any day. I love him with all of my heart and I just hope that he is still able to reach his very highest potential. So as for the new game plan, stay tuned because hopefully it will be revealed shortly.